Tony ignores order, Steve has a flashback

[max magnality]

Hey guys!
I've literally googled, bing'd, searched every archive I know and rummaged through pages of my favorite fanfiction to find this and I'm out of luck. The only thing I can think at this stage is that this story has been deleted, which would be an utter tragedy.
It's soooo well written and the imagery is downright vivid~ I can remember whole lines of description by heart.

Basically, the Avengers get a call, and while everyone's out kicking ass Steve gets separated from the group and calls for assistance from Iron Man who tells Steve he's frying bigger fish at the moment/ stop telling me what to do/ I'm Iron Man and I do what I want. Or some variation of that.
Long story short, our dear Capsicle falls off of the docks and has a full-scale flashback, by the time he makes it out, he's soaked to the bone and freezing. Tony initially tells him to suck it up and Steve inarticulately forces out something like, "Where were you? I needed you. I needed you and you weren't there...." And it's literally fucking heartbreaking.

Tony is still being Tony and he leaves Cap to his would-be lecture, except suddenly Steve's on his knees hacking up a lung and he can't breathe.
Naturally, Tony goes from angry to concerned and is by Steve's side in one fell swoop, trying to convince him to stay awake and talk to him, but Steve is becoming less and less coherent as time passes~ eventually they make it to medical and the Avengers are all clustered around while he's hooked up to a ventilator day-dreaming/ in limbo/ dying and hears Tony's broken voice claiming that it's all his fault.

Opens his baby blues to reassure Tony that everything's alright and badda-bing-badda-boom. The end!

There is one story that I know of that is similar to this one where Steve contracts a virus from a dip in a water tank, but that's not the one I'm looking for~ Thanks to everyone in advance!!

~Max

Comments

[ladyhatshepsut.livejournal.com]

Just so you know, the story NOT being searched for is Familiar Taste of Poison by layilabinx at AO3. I just read this two or three days ago after hunting for almost a month.

[ananova55.livejournal.com]

Stay With Me (home is where your mind is.) by sara_holmes http://archiveofourown.org/works/1246060

Is similar with Steve calling Tony for help and getting hurt when Tony puts him off. But there is no dock or water.

Though your search does sound familiar I can't remember the fic or author either. If you don't find it here you could also try crossposting the search to http://cap-im-finders.livejournal.com/

Good luck and please let us know if you find it.

[(Anonymous)]

I think you are looking for "But a memory revisited" on fanfiction.net.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8351852/1/But-a-Memory-Revisited
Steve almost crashes another plane into the ocean and has some major flashbak about it.

[(Anonymous)]

The story you want, if you hadn't found it, was Hell is Cold by mgsylvester. All their stuff has disappeared, though :(

However, there is a story inspired by that one! A good alternative:

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10948249/1/Shattered-Ice

aw nuts

[silmarlfan1.livejournal.com]

i wanted to read it!

[(Anonymous)]

This was my favorite fic and I’m so sad it’s gone. Mgsylvester’s works all disappeared; so sad because they were the best to reread. I hope they will repost them some day. :(

[(Anonymous)]

Does anyone happen to have a copy of this fic? I remember absolutely loving it and would love to read it again.

[(Anonymous)]

unfortunately, I do not. I sure wish I did. Anyone else?

Found

[(Anonymous)]

So, I took a long journey on the wayback machine.

https://web.archive.org/web/20151109091005/https://www.fanfiction.net/u/4911838/Padria95

then click on the favorite stories and it'll be there.

mgsylvester's page itself did not get archived, but you can get bits and pieces of her stories from the archives of other users who favorited some of the stories.

Re: Found

[(Anonymous)]

wayback machine link for fic: https://web.archive.org/web/20150929023627/https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10634449/1/Hell-is-Cold

It's been a long, long time.

RE: Re: Found

[thegoodcaptaina.livejournal.com]

hey god this is like 3 years later and I'm sorry but would you maybe have a copy of mgsylvester's Just Not Enough? It's on wayback machine but it only has 1 and 9 chapter there

Re: Re: Found

[schloopy98.livejournal.com]

this is actually so funny to me because I remember finding this thread years ago and this comment is relatively recent. I'm writing one now because I am also looking for Just Not Enough. having chapter 1 and 9 is... just not enough... anyway mgsylvester if you're still out there, I still think about your work so many years later and would love a chance to read them all again :,)