Looking for specific Steve/Bucky/Darcy fic.....

[zilentdreamer.livejournal.com]

Hi, so I've been looking for a fic I read a long time ago, and I'm reaching the point where ripping out my hair in frustration is starting to look like a viable option, so I hope someone can help me.

I'm looking for a fic that features the Steve/Bucky/Darcy pairing.  I can't remember what it's called or who the author is, or even where I read it.  I'm 70% sure I originally read it on AO3, but I can't remember for sure.

What I do remember is the three of them decide to try out a relationship between the three of them.  I vaguely remember them all being hesitant, obviously willing to give it a go, but nervous that it wouldn't work out???

One scene I do remember, vividly, is that Bucky gets attacked on a mission (at least I think it was a mission) and he is triggered back into being the Winter Soldier.  In the end Darcy convinces everyone to let her try and reach out to him, in the hopes she can bring back some of his memories.  Clint goes in with her, intending to shoot Bucky if he so much as twitches wrong, while everyone else watches from somewhere else.  Darcy freaks out seeing Bucky not being Bucky, and without really thinking she tries to run to him.  (I think she's remembering a conversation with Bucky about how much he liked her hugs??)  Clint tries to stop her, only Bucky grabs Darcy and basically hauls her behind him, clearly not remembering much, but somehow knowing she is important.

The next part I remember is that Bucky isn't murderous, but he's not himself anymore.  In the end he asks to be let go, and while Steve doesn't want to do it, Darcy says yes, let him go.  So Bucky is allowed to leave, and his absense creates a rift between Darcy and Steve, both of whom are afraid and convinced that their relationship won't work without Bucky.

The last part I remember is Darcy crying on the couch, trying not to let Steve see, only he does, and he goes to comfort her.

That's what I remember and I would love to reread the fic in its entirety so someone please help me find this fic for the love of all that is holy!!!!

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[ananova55.livejournal.com]

That was Catch a Falling Star by KittyWings01

Unfortunately she deleted all of her fics for some reason.

[zilentdreamer.livejournal.com]

Oh god, of course. Any idea why? I remember thinking that fic was absolutely amazing.