Bucky Recovery re: Howard fics?

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Does anyone know any fics about Bucky realizing he kills Howard and being UPSET about it?

I’ve read a lot of fics where Tony is upset about it. But usually all those fics have Bucky oddly not caring at all, or only concerned about it in regards to the idea that Tony is upset.

Except, of all the kills possibly attributed to the Winter Soldier, Howard was the only one that Bucky KNEW and was possibly FRIENDS with. So, I kind of wondering if there are fics out there that would explore Bucky's thoughts/feelings about the event.

Any recs?!

Comments

[magic-7-words.livejournal.com]

Probably not what you're expecting, but your question reminded me of one where Bucky realizes he's just killed Howard, gathers that's a bad thing somehow, and goes AWOL with baby Tony. All The Leaves Are Brown (And the sky is gray) by AvocadoLove (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1609838/chapters/3427676)

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

True, not exactly what I was after - but better than nothing!

Thanks :)

[ananova55.livejournal.com]

And The Wounded Sing by Wynn http://archiveofourown.org/works/2222256

It's been a little while since I read this but I seem to remember that it had Bucky focusing on the fact that he had killed his friend Howard. I think he was still upset in regards to Tony but he was upset upon the realization of what he did to his friend which is what you're looking for. This is a Bucky recovery fic so he's working through what he was forced to do. It's a Darcy/Bucky fic and a sequel so you might want to read That Which You Seek by Wynn first.

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'll check it out.