Long-suffering!Phil, self-deprecating!Phil

[merle-p.livejournal.com]

Hello, thank you so much in advance for your help! I've been re-reading tons of old MCU fic recently, and two amazing fics I keep circling back to are Got to do what you love by BlackEyedGirl and if i can't dance then i don't want any part of your revolution by lanyon.

Now I'm looking for fics with a similar take on the character on Phil Coulson. That means I'm looking specifically for stories with

(a) competent, long-suffering Phil (Phil being exhausted from/frustrated with Avenger-wrangling or keeping Clint and Natasha under control or running SHIELD or whatnot)
(b) competent, but self-deprecating Phil (Phil being somewhat insecure, or resigned, or lonely).

In both cases, I'm looking for stories with a preferably hopeful/happy ending - that is, where he realizes that people do appreciate him after all, or someone takes care of him for a bit, or his affections are returned. I prefer stories that lean towards understatement (see my examples), that means, I prefer a subtle, quiet sense of suffering over full-blown whump, but I'll take what I can get :) I'm partial to Phil/Clint, but I'm honestly open to all pairings (Phil/Darcy, Phil/Nick, Phil/Natasha ...) or gen as well. MCU or AoS or comic!verse are all fine.

Comments

[dinara-n.livejournal.com]

I know I read some insecure!Phil fics, but the only one that comes to mind is Erro, Ergo Sum (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2259831).

[merle-p.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I think I may have read this one before, but had all forgotten about it, so I'm really glad you reminded me, because it's lovely!

An Acceptable Loss

[taya2100.livejournal.com]

Not sure if these are what you want but here you go.
http://archiveofourown.org/works/450600

Re: An Acceptable Loss

[merle-p.livejournal.com]

Thank you, yes, this is exactly the kind of thing I was looking for!