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I'm looking for a fic that includes a scene where Bucky's telling Steve about a mission during his time with Hydra (or possibly the Russians?) where his programming slipped slightly- the target was a young blonde man who he ended up going on the run with for a short time before his handlers caught up with them. Steve somehow assumed that Bucky had fallen in love with the guy and that it was a sad memory, but Bucky was more cheerful about it, saying that it had been mostly a physical diversion and he didn't mourn him.

[13/8/15 edit: found it, chapter four of Why Then Oh Why Can't I]

Also, linking this search again, because I've still not found it.